When overconfident beats you.
This is a post to remind myself time and time again of the graves mistakes I made, to have another persons life in your hands.
(Referred to twitter here and there)
2nd May 2011 - Labour Day [Approx 9pm]
Like any other day, the group of us went to watch movie at Cineleisure Orchard. There were Victoria, Jono, Justin, Simon, Gerald. We watched Arthur. [I had to refer to twitter to find out about it. ] It was a funny and nice show. However I believe, after that day, no one could remember about the movie/the title of the movie we watched. Instead, it became the day where it happens.
Movie ended around 11++ pm. We decided to drop by Changi Village to have supper. Contacted Azfar and Mujia to join us for supper there.
3rd May 2011 - [Approx 12am]
3 bikes, 6 people. Me with Tori, Gerald with Justin, Simon with Jono. The routes we were taking, CTE -> PIE.
I was at the front followed by Gerald and Simon. Along the way, while entering PIE from CTE, (yes I was speeding, maybe around 70-80km/h?) there was this sharp bend. Overconfidence really got me. I didnt think about her at that point of time. I cornered as though I could clear it like any other time. Yes, what the hell was I thinking, endangering other people lives
Little did I notice there was this line of oil/watermark on the floor. As I banked to the right, somehow or rather, it slipped off to the right and before we knew it, I was sliding on the floor and so was Tori. The sparks from my bike made me realize that Ive already lost. Lost control of my bike. I was leaning forward and fell on all fours while she fell on her right side. It happened so fast. Fortunately there were no cars behind us. Some how rather the first thing I did was to find her. I stood up and there she was, she also stood up. But I know for sure that we are badly injured but I didnt know how bad. I experienced it with Sean but this time its different. She was a girl. And not a guy. I didnt pay much attention to the wounds, instead I tried to sort out what to be done asap. By that time, we were at the left side of the single lane road.
3rd May 2011 - [1230am]
We were in a state of shocked, especially Victoria. I asked if she was okay and all I could remember was that she was saying ‘Ouch…’ in the tone whereby someone is in deep pain. I needed to get help fast. I realized Gerald and Simon were behind me. Upon seeing them, I told them to slow down. I couldnt do anything much cause Im in the same state as her but I know I had to be strong to guide her to safety. And I know I need to get things settle asap because we will start to feel the giddiness. They stopped by the side and came to us. I told them to prioritize Victoria 1st. Take her to the hospital asap. Get a taxi.
I was in a mentally disordered state already afterwards. Everything happens very slow afterwards. The giddiness kicks in on Victoria already. She couldnt walk properly and the nauseatic feeling got her. Its the same feeling I have the other time when I got into an accident with Sean. Im starting to feel the same way and almost felt like vomitting. Went to the side parapet to rest and calm myself down. My vision became blurry. But I was lucky that they were around. Simon Jono and Justin helped Victoria while Gerald was directing traffic. Even in that state, I could remember vividly what happened. Jono came over to me afterwards.
We were lucky indeed. A passing car stopped by to give Victoria and Justin a lift to TTSH and then Simon followed after. Left with me Gerald and Jono. I didnt care about my wounds. All I cared about was her. I had to go to the hospital to see her. But i need to piece myself together about what is to be done. Somehow rather, I told Jono if he could ride my bike as I was too giddy to ride at that point of time. But after awhile, I told them that I could ride my bike. Went to the nearest exit of the expressway which was at Kallang Way. And me and Jono took a cab over to TTSH.
3rd May 2011 - [Approx 1250am]
I had to see her. She was on the bed already and I saw tears rolling down her cheek. That was the point of time whereby I couldnt forgive myself. The guilt for life. Her life was at stake before that. It could have been worse if my bike were to flip over. Cause if it really did, she and I would have flew out of the flyover expressway. Her right leg had a huge abrasions, her knee had deep cuts. And her right elbow was hurt also. =(. I cant forgive myself to see her in pain. I caused the tears, the pain. It was all my doing. Why? I was reckless, I was speeding, I was overconfident.
At that point I really wished that I could turn back time to take it all away.. but I cant. This will be one accident which I can never forget and will remember for life. Causing my dear friend pain which no one should experience, especially to her, Victoria.
Im sorry Victoria.
A pain which a girl shouldnt experience.
Cried like fuck whilst redressing wound
